I have noticed recently, that I stopped doing what I love so much, and some people have no idea how much I love, to dance, and sing my heart out. This make’s me want to dive in wholeheartedly and not waste one minute doing what I love because why not? I guess I’ve let fear crept in for quit a while and run my life to some extent, and now I’ve been robbed of those thing’s in life that bring me so much joy. My life really isn’t complete without having a creative outlet, wether it be singing, dancing, writing, just simply creating, all of this is a part of who I am of me. So in a way I guess I’ve forgotten about me, and that’s just crazy….

Don’t ever stop doing what you know, God has called you to do. This keeps ringing in my head, keeps coming up won’t stop. Just last night I read over a letter from someone a really long time ago with these exact words and lately I’m seeing how I stopped doing certain thing’s because of fear, Fear of what exactly, well regardless it shouldn’t be the thing driving my life in anyway shape or form. But this fear unfortunately has been such a powerful thing in my life, but it’s not impossible to overcome with my God, it can’t be the driving force ever.

I’ve felt for so long that I had to adhere to everyone’s mold in some way or another to be accepted, but in that I’ve found that I lost myself. And that caring so much about the opinion’s of other’s above thinking about myself just isn’t worth it, and having people except this lie and losing myself in the process just isn’t okay with me at all. I will be me regardless of what anyone may think that’s all I can be flaws and all I’m only human.

Ever wish something’s were easier said then done,
that all the hopes you have were easier to reach but I guess in some strange way,
that’s the beauty in it all, to find our way and see thing’s happen that we’ve only dreamed.

I can say, I’ve been so uncontintent with the same old, with the way thing’s are and have been. That I just want to be free of every burden, anything that has ever held me back from truly embracing all I have and all God wants to do in my life. I truly believe it’s a choice you make, to sit in the pain, in the fear, or release it all to God but I also know that everything works out in time and the strength you need will be there to see you through to the end.

So tired, of the days blending into eachother, of time being so endlessly fleeting, i feel such an urgency, to make something happen now.

Can’t get why, when I extend myself I seem to get nothing in return. I have no clue why this has happend and this is what drives me crazy. Especially to those people who should get me by now but I guess that’s what happens when people get so busy with life…. They can’t even remember you.

When thing’s seem to much to bear at times, or circumstances put me in a horrible emotional state. I may not know at the moment what exactly is going on I just know im weirded out completely and then God meets me at the end of it all and provides such a calm. Such as someone speaking right to my heart, just what I needed to hear and this coming from more than one person. Amazing always,how im meet right where I need to be,at the moment I needed to be comforted. And then such a calm comes with this, such a peace that passes understanding really.

Cast all your anxiety upon Him for he cares for you. 1peter 5;7

ellemenoh:

(via beautymarkedandponytails, sweetpea0531)

(Source: yourlifeisyourmessage)